Is there really purpose in my pain?!?!?

On Wed. nights we have been talking about purpose and plans that are ordained by God. When you are at a difficult place~ it can be so difficult to praise and glorify God~ one thing on Wed. nights that we talk about is getting real before the Father~ we do not seek "church" answers from one another~ we share raw honesty~ we acknowledge that we serve a Father that wove and spun us ~ that He knows more about us than we know about ourselves~ the next sentence might shock and offend some of you that are on the journey of infertility~ YOUR PURPOSE IS NOT TO BE A MOTHER~ we talk a great deal about this in our Bible study~ YOUR PURPOSE IS TO GLORIFY JESUS CHRIST~ there is purpose in your pain~ this pain can eat you up and destroy you~ Satin would love that by the way, OR~ this pain can provide purpose to fall at your Father's feet and find peace that covers and envelopes your very being~ HE wants this peace for YOU~ I can sooo take myself back to the desperate longing that I had for a baby~ it is a desperate place and at points it absolutely consumed me~ what was supposed to be a natural indescribable gift from God began to destroy my Father/Daughter relationship~ I constantly sought His hands~ when instead I should have been seeking His face~ His voice that wanted to speak to me~ His ears that wanted to Hear me and His eyes that wept for me ~ when I cried He cried harder~ today at church something caught my attention~ there is not a pain that we will ever endure that Christ has not endured~ I never really thought about the human part of God~ that thirst that He felt on the cross was a similar thirst that a dying person endures~ He was broken, He was misunderstood, He was wronged, He was cheated, He had Heartache, He was tempted. He endured that to even be closer to us~ to save every wrong that we could commit~ He took God's wrath for us!!In Jeremiah 29:11 God talks about His plan for us a plan for us to prosper us , not a plan of harm, a plan for the FUTURE~ He doesn't say I had a plan for you or I'm thinking up a plan for you~ HE HOLDS THE FUTURE FOR YOU~ Since He is all knowing why don't we ask Him, why don't we talk to Him and then stop to listen to what He wants to say~ yes and no answers are easier than wait~ with yes or no there is finality~ with wait ~ the longing is still there~ I want to share one of my favorite verses that Paul wrote~ you might here me share about him frequently~ he is one of my favorite writers. This is also a prayer that I pray for each of you~ Ephesians 3:14-19~

(paraphrased)I pray that you being established in love can have the strength to comprehend how wide, how high , how deep, and long is the love of Christ~ His love is Higher than the Heavens, wider than the oceans, deeper than the seas and longer than forever~ I hope that you all have a great night~ I am praying for you moment by moment each and every single day!!

Praying God's richest blessings rain upon you~
Kimberly